91.6 miles and 26 hours so far. now that i am actually counting the time i spend being active in aikido class, things add up quickly. do not ask me why i thought they didn't really count before. i come out of class sweaty and tired and i'm still working on convincing myself that it really is a sport activity. mostly because my mental health barometer is a bit skewed. i find myself lately blaming the rest of the world for not seeing the truth of the matter that i am in reality a lazy failure. academically, i get that i'm doing the equivalent of a part time job with aikido and running (and biking to and from work) in addition to the full time job that i am actually doing, but when i look at myself, i still see failure. yes, i know i need help, no i still haven't convinced myself i deserve it. meanwhile, my long runs are going spectacularly. i am a contradiction. sorry for the comment spamming, feel free to ignore.
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(Maybe you need to add a challenge to take steps towards that?)